Why O Lord can I not hear You? Why can I not feel Your presence? Or know Your love? Why do I feel as if You've left me alone to fend for myself in this crazy, mixed up world? In the crazy mixed up life of mine? Where are You?
Your word says that You will never leave me, nor forsake me. And yet, I feel alone. Left to my own devices which are feeling contrary to You. Do You even care Abba?
Please, come make Yourself known to me. Allow me to feel Your love. To know Your life in me.
Awaken me from this slumber I feel that I'm in. Where life is but a dream. A crazy mixed up dream without You in it. With no thriving. Only surviving. It feels as though winter has come to stay in my heart. Taken up residence and is unwilling to leave. I want to live again Lord. To be beautiful and to thrive. Like the new green of spring. Along with the fresh blossoms. The new life all around. Hope. Joy. Peace. Life.