Hope

I found this morning that I have hope. I feel hope again. Hope which gives me joy. Hope which brings me peace.
God loves me right where I am. This is something that I've tried to convince myself of for a long time now. It's been a head issue, but God is making it into a heart issue. One that I can wrap my mind around. One that I can believe and accept as my own. It is an amazing, wonderful gift. I really wanted this, but didn't know how to manufacture it on my own. Guess what, I couldn't. And I didn't. I did nothing to make this happen on my own. It's ALL God's doing. That's what makes it so amazing. It's real. I cannot really describe this new feeling, but it's definitely that. NEW! Amazing! Life changing. I don't know what to do with it except to enjoy it. Maybe I'll begin to rest in this love like God called me to do years ago. I didn't know what that meant because it was only a head knowledge of His love that I had at the time. This knew love that I'm experiencing is amazing and almost tangible. It's full and consuming. I am truly blessed. I can hope. I can rest. I can just be.